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13, February 28th is the anniversary of my existance, originated from Singapore, destiny is Australia, Riverlife is the church, Megalife is the group, SAC is the cell and the past school, 1/6 is the best class ever, SOTA is the present school, Asian,
Pasir Ris is the neighbourhood, Loyang Place is the road of the past and of chalky scribbles.
The Ohs and the Boks and the Yaps are my family :) God is the centre of my life.
I like 98.7FM, butterflies, flowers, rain photography, rain music, the wind, sky, sea, sleeping in, late nights, reading, chocolate anything, pristine thick blank notebooks with cool covers, dark and cold mornings, ice cream, nata de coco, ice, crystals, glass anything, jewels, anything shiny, iora, El Nath,
bazaars in Western Australia, dreamcatchers, hugs, lots of hugs, professional soulful pianists playing the piano, being refreshed.
I dream chart reuse, lawn green, green, aquamarine, turquoise, sea blue, deep sky blue, sky blue, light sky blue,light blue, silver, white.
I am all about photography, designing, drawing, listening to music.
My favourite place in the world besides my bed is Riverlife Church. I also miss Yanchep and Hillarys beach in Western Australia very much.
I hate saying goodbye (or worse, not being given a chance to say goodbye), running out of anything, studying, exams, being criticized, being compared, being used, being scolded for no reason, being nagged at, being looked down on, being ignored, being alone, feeling sad, feeling hopeless.
Desires
→ Finish reading the whole Bible
→ Go to and travel around Paris
→ Have a photography album of Paris
→ Travel around Europe
→ Have a photography album of Europe
→ A good waterproof camera that can take photos exactly the way they appear
→ Adobe Photoshop
→ Watch Spiderwick/Jumper/I Am Legend/Wanted
→ Fill up September
→ Transfer to School of the Arts
→ Black skinnies
→ A black/grey/white cardigan
→ FBTs
→ Plum shoes :D
→ Black and white converse shoes
→ Speakers for my iPod
→ A black hoodie
→ An Elie necklace
→ A Haru ring
→ Rosie comes to Nubian Gents with me
→ Black bracelets
→ A dreamcatcher
DECEMBER{; the end
Monday, December 31, 2007
well, folks. 2007 has been one of the best and worst years of my life. it`s time to say goodbye to 2007...`cause we`ll never see it again.
i`ll miss 2007 and the people who helped pull me through living in Australia. maybe we won`t see each other again...maybe we will. anyway, i`m going to the watchnight service tonight at BPMC to see the New Year countdown... this`ll be the last post for 2007...one of the longest years of my life. i hope next year will be a better year...
somehow, i just don`t want time to keep going.
Hey Girl, I'm sad I heard that you were leaving You can't go, you're my best friend I'm sure gonna miss you I always think about you All the time you're on my mind We played together you and I I can't believe that its true Now I have to see you leave You're the only one for me My girlfriend, my best friend I don't wanna see you go I just wanna let you know that I have a crush on you I can't wait no longer girl To say what I feel I'm gonna miss you forever I'm gonna miss you girl Gonna miss you girl I'm gonna miss you forever I'm gonna miss you girl Gonna miss you girl The first time that I saw you I knew it from the very start You had a place deep in my heart I can't believe that it's true Now it's time for you to leave And Baby I just can't believe My girlfriend, my best friend I don't wanna see you go I just wanna let you know that I have a crush on you I can't wait no longer girl To say what I feel I'm gonna miss you forever I'm gonna miss you girl Gonna miss you girl I'm gonna miss you forever I'm gonna miss you girl Gonna miss you girl You and me together Girl, I'll wait forever It's only the matter of time 'Coz I never wanna see you go I just wanna let you know That I can't wait no longer girl To say what I feel I'm gonna miss you forever I'm gonna miss you girl Gonna miss you girl I'm gonna miss you forever I'm gonna miss you girl Gonna miss you girl I'm gonna miss Gonna miss you...
(Christie) ♥ 1:23 PM
DECEMBER{; hate, hate, hate.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
... i don`t know whether to hate Alex or just pretend like nothing happened.
in church today, i simply told him that Lionel Teo looks nice. and it was just an innocent remark. and the next thing i knew, he was sprinting all around the worship hall screaming: "CHRISTIE LIKES LIONEL!!!" -_-# BLOODY HELL, LAH ALEX! at least Lionel had already left church way beforwe that so he wasn`t there to hear Alex screamin like a maniac. okay, that`s the first reason why i feel like strangling him. the second reason is that he keeps on telling Jonathan Tan that i sent him these SMSes that i liked him when i actually don`t. when Alex was the one that used MY PHONE, first when i was ordering my chicken rice and left it on the table. second when i left it on the table again when i was ordering my food from Burger King. third was when he just took it from me and wouldn`t give it back to me. so tell me, why do i even know this person? so that i can get him & Vic to talk to each other??? if that`s the only reason why i know him, then to hell with that, i can make other guy friends.
and the girls totally weren`t helping either. they fully deserted me to talk to other people for a full hour and the next thing i knew, i SMSed Rachel and told her i was going home. and that is what i did.
i think Joy hates me too for some reason. Regina told me some things she said on her blog this morning before church but they weren`t really clear. i don`t intend on going to Joy`s blog. like Toneya told me months ago, "What i don`t know won`t hurt me" so it`s better to live in oblivion. ignorance, my friend, is bliss.
gotta go eat lunch...
& when i thought the one thing i thought to be true all along was just a fake like everything else...
♥/christieo
[this bit was made at 6:13PM] my relatives are now at my house =x i didn`t even know they were coming :( i think they sort of invited themselves over. oh well. they usually do things like these, anyway. and i was having a nice nap in my room when suddenly my cousin came in LOL. -sighs- still feeling so down... Aaron Carter`s songs totally ain`t helping either. nothing seems to matter right now except just getting through my life with as little hate as possible...
here i ask again, why was my life meant to turn out this way???
[this bit was made at 7:48PM] we finished eating. i`m so full. ohmyg. i don`t want to grow up... i don`t want to grow up... why can`t Peter Pan come and take me away to Neverland... why can`t Tinkerbell come and spray pixie dust into my face so i don`t have to be sad all the time otherwise i can`t fly... why can`t i fly by magic? i never want to grow up... i never want to grow up...
i almost forgot i was going out with Victoria tomorrow... -sighs- i want to run away. why is Alex so freaking irritating...yet so adorable at the same time??? =.=#
(Christie) ♥ 1:51 PM
DECEMBER{; new record
Saturday, December 29, 2007
well, folks. this is my new record: seeing Alex for 7 days in a row. AKA, ALL WEEK. how cool is that? ^^ and i`m seeing him tomorrow in church O_O i don`t know if i can go to the watchnight on the 31st or not...my mother is going to have a fit when i ask her for permission. i think she might say something like: "WHY YOU GO OUT EVERYDAY ONE??? WHOLE WEEK GO OUT UNTIL SIX PLUS, OKAY! NOW YOU WANT TO SLEEP OVERNIGHT SOMEMORE! NO MORE GOING OUT!!!" yalah yalah yalah. i can just imagine.
anyway, i now have 4 pictures of Alex on my handphone. two of them with Gabriel in it and the other two with him just looking hilarious.
you know Alex from the movie MADAGASCAR? i love the bit where him and Marty were running towards each other on the beach. Alex: MARTY! :DDD Marty: AAAALEX!! <:DDDD Alex: Maarrrty! :D Marty: Aaaal! ^^ Alex: MARRRty....>:O Marty: Alex? O_O Alex: MAAAAAARTTYYYYYY!!!! >:OOOOO Marty: *turns around* OH Sugar Honey Ice Tea!!! (SHIT)
me and Rachel were thinking of doing that to Alex tomorrow XDDDD wahahahaha. i feel so evil. damn. i should`ve got him an Alex alarm clock for Christmas ♥
anyway today, we (Alex & Rachel & me) were meant to meet up at 10:30AM outside the arcade. well, this was what i did. i SMSed the both of them at like 9 smth in the high hopes that i`d wake them up. when i took the bus to WS, no one was outside the arcade. so i waited awhile. after awhile i got frustrated and called Rachel. and she goes: "ughghghs. what time is it?" and i was like...SHE JUST WOKE UP!!! O M G. and then like two hours later, Alex came and found a free car racing game to play in the arcade so i just watched him play. then when he was done playing we just waited for Rachel to come. __-__ lalalalas. then we played in the arcade awhile. then we went to Burger King to eat our lunch...where i took a picture of him eating O.O" ahh. Alex is so cool.
after that Alex had to go so we went to the MRT station because Rachel was thinking of going to Tampines to buy her drumsticks. but Alex was going to Bradell so we just got off first. do you know what Alex said to me in the train??? i was hanging on to one of the metal poles in the train, and would you like to know what that BODOH said to me?!?!?! he said: "Christie, you looked like you were about to go pole-dancing right there". !@#$%^&* BLOODY HELL, LAH, ALEX!!! HOW SICK & PERVERTED IS YOUR MIND!?!?!?! I WAS JUST HANGING ON TO THE POLE SO I WOULDN`T SLIDE OFF AND LAND FACE FIRST IN SOME INNOCENT PASSENGER, ALRIGHT!?!?!??!?!
-sighs- *calms down* okay anyway Rachel and me played that rock quiz again while walking around. after buying her drumsticks we just walked around and got bored so we went back to WS. then we went to her house. i decided to go upstairs to see whether Kenneth was home but his front door was closed and he didn`t answer my SMS so i was like, to hell with visiting him. let`s go spitting out the 9th floor again. after we`ve had our fun of spitting out the 9th floor, we went back to her house to slack around. then i took a bus back and walked the rest of the way home with an umbrella over my head because it was raining. and my legs were like drenched by the time i got back >.<"
YEPS! i`ll see Alex again tomorrow... man. i`ll miss Alex when school starts :(
♥/christieo
PS: Alex, if you`re reading this, look at this!!! ^^
ALEX! do NOT interrupt me when i`m DAYDREAMING! >:O LAWL. from MADAGASCAR once again ;))
(Christie) ♥ 6:44 PM
DECEMBER{; all week.
Friday, December 28, 2007
i`ve seen Alex all week.
today i waited for him outside the arcade but Rachel wasn`t there yet so he pei wo go POPULAR buy a pencil case for myself because the zip on my last one broke and no one i knew could fix it. SO! i`ve got a dark grey KUKUMALU pencil case with lime green ♥ ♥ ♥ it`s so cute. and it actually matches my bag which is grey and lime green.
then Rachel met us at POPULAR, and then we went to the arcade...
and then Rachel and me got bored so we went upstairs. then we played a quiz to see who could name as many rock bands/artists as we could, and whoever couldn`t name anymore lost. it was quite fun XDDD then we went to POPULAR to buy some stuff. i got a nice light blue DELIGHT notebook and Rachel got a black and white striped one with a 0.4 black pen i recommended her. then Alex told me he went to Gabriel`s house so later, me and Rachel went there.
i won`t be mean and put a really hilarious picture of Gabriel here (:
then we played on the Wii game Gabriel had... then we got bored and went downstairs to play block catching barefoot. when we finished, we just sat around on the benches below and wanted to play TRUTH OR DARE, which didn`t really work. Alex just kept making all these sick, perverted dares. yeps. because i was sitting on the bench with my feet off the ground barefoot, my slippers were like on the floor. so what Alex did was, he decided it might be funny to take away my slippers and run away with them with Gabriel. so here i was, chasing after them screaming: "GIMME MY SLIPPERS BACK" =.=#
yeah. i had to go back to Gabriel`s place because my bag and my stuff was there. but then they ended up playing the Wii game and i wouldn`t leave without Rachel because we both have to go to the Pasir Ris Interchange to get on our buses home (Rachel: 3, Me: 354). yeah.
i would put a picture i took of Alex pretending to sleep but he`d murder me for putting it up here, too.
yeah. by the time i got back, it was already dark and my father went on one of his rare scolding sessions. why so late, stop this nonsense, next time go out earlier, yalah, yalah, yalah. and i don`t know what to do anymore.
(Christie) ♥ 9:23 PM
DECEMBER{; true
Thursday, December 27, 2007
today i went out with Alex, Victoria and Rachel to WS... Rachel, me and Victoria took neoprints because Alex would rather drop dead than be caught taking neoprints with 3 girls. then we went to the arcade.
that was pretty much it for today, i guess.
i`m just thinking about what my father said to me today... while we were just finishing our lunch, right...he said these words: "the clouds are perpetually hovering in the sky...you can`t even see the blue sky. and the air is so still. it`s like so lonely lidat". it was as if he just read my mind at that point in time.
when i got back home for dinner (my mother was upstairs watching TV but my father was reading the newspaper at the dinner table), i talked to my father a bit. he said to me: "true friends will stick with you even if you`re in different schools".
... ... ... ... ... ... ...
i think the only true friend i still have from PRPS is Yu Min. she`s the only one who actually WANTS to talk to me no matter what, she`s been my friend since P1, she calls me like all the time. she`s like seriously a true friend. so what happened to everyone else?
i know i won`t be separated from the people in BPMC for a long time. that`s why we`re still together. but what if i left BPMC? what then? what if i just stuck to Riverlife, where i hardly have any friends there? would the people i know from BPMC still be as true as Yu Min? true friends are hard to find. i`m so happy i met Yu Min. but the really sad part is: i think i came back to Singapore for the wrong reasons. this is exactly what i thought about in Australia. i still don`t know what i want in this life. i don`t want to regret coming back to Singapore. i think i might as well just try following Hakuna Matata & Carpe Diem.
I woke up it was seven I waited till eleven Just to figure out that no one would call I think I've got a lot of friends But I don't hear from them What's another night all alone When you're spending everyday on your own
And here it goes I'm just a kid And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me
And maybe when the night is dead I'll crawl into my bed staring at these four walls again I'll try to think about the last time I had a good time Everyone's got somewhere to go And they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes I'm just a kid And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me
What the fuck is wrong with me Don't fit in with anybody How did this happen to me? Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep And every night is the worst night ever I'm just a kid (x10) And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world I'm just a kid And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world Nobody cares cause i'm alone and the world is Having more fun than me tonight I'm all alone tonight Nobody cares tonight Cause I'm just a kid tonight
this is exactly how i feel now. -sighs-
♥/christieo
(Christie) ♥ 9:04 PM
DECEMBER{; alex, alex, alex.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
WELL. today was basically all about Alex.
i would put a picture of Alex i took today (a picture of him laughing like siao) but i think if i put it up and if he saw it, he`d murder me.
anyway at 12:15PM i met him outside the McDonalds at DTE, and you want to know what the really sad part was? we couldn`t get anyone else to join us. so Alex & me were like...let`s hide in Burger King because McDonalds was so freaking crowded. to tell you the truth, i hardly ever eat at Burger King. but Alex told me that he keeps on getting the same thing everytime he goes there so he said: "just buy what i buy". a student meal BK Chicken. see? look how many stupid things i remember? i even remember the name of the meal i ORDERED for crying out loud. then i saw Dave from PRPS (that head prefect dude Serene & me saw at Pasir Ris park last time) ordering smth at Burger King and we were both like...you look familiar. so we just like chatted for like 5 seconds.
anyway after eating we walked, YES, WALKED all the way to Alex`s house which was near Greenview. we were actually going to go to Lionel`s house but it was so hard to reach him since he didn`t have a hp!!! so Alex was like..."ahhhh forget him. we`ll go to my house". then Gabriel ended up going to Alex`s house too. that was where the fun began. again.
it was so funny at Alex`s house leh!!! we played monopoly first but then grew tired of it after Alex decided to put HSM2 on. then we went into a room with a TV in it to watch while Alex decided it would be nice to hog O2Jam. i`m more pro than him. haha. Gabriel actually chose a dog for his monopoly guy, and Alex was like obsessing for the whole day over his dog having a number 7 on his ass. then Alex kept jumping on poor Gabriel and kicking him in the nuts __-__ well, he only kicked him one time. poor, poor Gabriel. but it made me laugh so much LOL!!! after watching HSM2, we played taiti awhile. i kept on getting the biggest cards *feels lucky* LOL. then Alex kept saying: "GABRIEL YOU HAVE A NUMBER 7 ON YOUR ASS" and then...he kept saying Gabriel has big boobs -_-# LOL!!! then Alex told us about this celebrity called PORN SAK *seriously* and for the rest of the day he was like cracking all these jokes about how his parents might have wanted to name him PORN SAK XDDDDDDDD ahh. *stomach hurts from laughing so much* yeah. everytime he said that we start laughing so much. so after playing taiti, he showed us these MOCCA videos. lame but seriously funny LOL. then we played cheat. then speed cheat LOL!!! then we were going to play taiti again but it was getting pretty late =x
so after laughing like heck over Alex`s damn funny jokes, we ran to the bus stop and Alex & Gabriel were just chasin each other arnd the place. so i got on the bus 358 and walked the rest of the way home.
ahhh. there`s always laughter with Alex around. muahahaha.
♥/christieohaihui!
(Christie) ♥ 8:28 PM
DECEMBER{; merry christmas, loves!
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
YESTERDAY i went with Joy to WS where we met Jalyn & Claudia. we met outside McDonalds. then Zhe Ru took like ages just to come, man. we saw a bird on the floor outside McDonalds. dw, it was alive.
picture of bird here when father/brother get off the good computer.
then we went to take neoprints. :DD after that, Claudia had to go home. then Joy and me decided it would be funny to ditch Jalyn and Zhe Ru, and hide in KFC while we SMS them, saying we were in Comics Connection. then when they got to Comics Connection, we told them we were in POPULAR. then when they got there, we told them we were really in KFC LOL!!! burn some fats, ladies. Zhe Ru said: "wahhh ai ai i want to strangle you leh". O.O"
then i actually saw Alex and Jonathan Tan in WS! LOL!!! so hilarious man. fancy seeing Alex three days in a row. (when i got home, i told Claudia about it and she got like so jealous because she really wanted to see Jonathan Tan)
yeah so when we all went back to Loyang Place, Jalyn and Joy decided to go to Pasir Ris Park by Zhe Ru`s scooters (BAAAAD MISTAKE) and when we got there, to our dismay, we realised we left our wallets back at the house. we were like soo freaking thirsty. oh well. good training for NAPFA test LAWL.
when we finally got back, we went on the computer awhile before Jalyn decided to go home. later i went to shower to get ready to go to my relatives house (father`s side of the family ♥ ♥ ♥). my (35 year old) cousin Jared, (32 year old) cousin Jeremy, (24 year old) cousin James and my (17 year old) brother decided to walk out to the minimart near the basketball court opposite PRPS and buy some drinks. when we got back, we concocted the BEST drink ever (with a little bit of alcohol, they told me later). it was soooo refreshing, man. we put in like two bottles of peach teas, one bottle of pink 7up, one bottle of apple & cranberry juice and loads of ice. it was the best, man. it was a really nice christmas. plus they lived on the 12th floor, which had like the nicest view you could ever get from an HDB flat. :DDDDDD
TODAY in the morning, FIRST THING in the morning when i finished getting ready for church, mama starts nagging. nagging nagging nagging. my goodness. no wonder i chose to move to Australia. hahaha. yeah. anyway, my NICE father decided to drive me to BPMC since it was like 9:54AM.
so...when i got to the worship hall i saw Alex & Victoria. i think the musical on the 23rd was SOOOO much better, man. anyway, after church i went with Victoria, Janene, Alex, Gabriel and Alex`s friend to Loyang Point food court. Janene, Gabriel, me and Victoria ate chicken rice while the rest filled themselves with talking instead O_O
Gabriel molesting Ronald McDonald`s statue. Gabriel in the green shirt, Alex in the bluey shirt.
when we got back to the church the others played taiti awhile...and slowly they 'taught' me how to play a bit. then Victoria`s uncle picked me and Victoria up from church and brought us to his house. that was where the fun began <333
i saw James & Jeremy there and we started off by playing Taboo. then we played taiti. then we played monopoly. that was when Alex decided it would be nice to SMS me like siao and ask whether he could go to Victoria`s uncle`s house to play with us. finally, Victoria agreed and then James gave Alex directions to the house since he fully couldn`t understand ME. then after awhile James had the feeling that Alex must have taken a wrong road so he told Alex to stay where he was while we got into the car and fetch him. so James was just like: "look out for the lost boy". haha. then we saw Alex standing like this lonely little boy in a blue shirt. bwahhaha. then when we went back to the house we continued playing monopoly awhile. when James & Jeremy had to go, Alex, me and Victoria decided to play hide and seek which didn`t last for very long LOL. then we just chatted and played one round of Cheat before Victoria`s uncle sent us home ♥ ♥
Alex is so damn hilarious man. X33 the only drawback: he won`t stop obsessing over my so-called Australian accent >.<"
♥/christieohaihui!(:
[this bit wsas made at 7:34PM] seriously, who does she think she is, anyway? this is my mother:
it really sucks like shit to have a principal as your mother
it sucks even more when she thinks she`s disciplining you WELL, but when she only makes matters worse
she thinks she`s like this perfectionist
she likes to exercise her authority (of being the loudest in the family, the only $$ earner in the family etc.) in front of us
she doesn`t know her nagging can kill
everytime we talk to her, at least one negative thing has got to come out of her mouth
she`s so unreasonable
she earns SO much as a principal, yet she keeps nagging us to turn off the mains for everything except the fridge mains
she says no to everything her kids ask
she says a lot of things she doesn`t mean (refusing to buy my school uniform, school books etc.)
she acts completely different in front of others
oh shyt i have to go now. maybe more later.
[this bit was made at 10:22PM] bloody hell. i just counted how many SMSes there were in my hp inbox. i had like 31 undeleted. and since the first SMS Alex sent me, i counted 18 SMSes so far. he sends even more than VICTORIA, for crying out loud.
(Christie) ♥ 5:34 PM
DECEMBER{; merry christmas (eve)
Monday, December 24, 2007
well, now. i haven`t been blogging since FRIDAY. and there`s so much to blog about. let`s start where i stopped off.
SATURDAY in the morning i went to Joy`s house to play the Sims 2. LOL. it was so funny. then i ate my lunch at her house while watching this uber childish christmas show on kidscentral (we didn`t really want to watch that. the tv just so happened to be on).
then at 1smth we went to walk to WS and Jalyn was like SMSing me and calling me so much -_-# and then she wanted to talk to Joy, and Joy was like screaming into the phone "YOU BODOH WE`RE ALREADY IN WS LAH!!!" and i was just like laughing so much. then Jalyn just told us she was on the 3rd floor so we went like 360º around the whole 3rd floor before finally finding her O.O believe me, it is no joke trying to find one person in WS.
then we saw Shermaine with Jalyn then we went to ComicsConnection to buy some cute things. my hp is already conjested with stuffed toys so i have decided not to put anymore dangly thingys on it ;))) *inspiration from Misa-Misa`s hp from DEATH NOTE 2* Shermaine on the escalator. Joy and Jalyn at the entrance to POPULAR.
so...we pretty much were laming around. going to McDonalds eating vanilla ice-creams and sending songs via bluetooth...then later wishing we hadn`t bought anything but i surprisingly managed to have 55 cents in my wallet...for the bus fare to go to BPMC. so, Joy was like: "bus 358 goes opposite DTE" and, whadya know? it was BUS 354LAH, BODOH!!! so we had to walk across the carpark and i saw Jonathan Tan riding his bike O_O gosh, he`s grown so freaking TALL! so when we got to Riverlife, the msg was quite good. pastor vincent so funny. can`t believe he had a gang when he was in sec sch. atom gang. sheesh how pathetic X3 fuuu xinn de rennnnnnn~ LOL!!!
then when i was walking Shermaine out to the bus stop and when i came back to the green side gate, we totally passed Maeve. and Joy and me and Jalyn were like screaming: "MAAAAAEEEEVVVEEEE!!!" and she totally didn`t hear us. we were like less than half a classroom away from her man. -_-#
yeah. then we walked back to Loyang Place. but i saw my relative`s cars parked along the road so i had to say goodbye and run home. sure enough, all of them were already EAING - EATING!??!! - WITHOUT ME!! oh well. but who could blame one for being hungry? yeah then my cousin Natalie sent me some funny pics through her hp...then we played o2jam until they had to go home.
and that ended a nice SATURDAY(:
SUNDAY
at 10smth my parents decided to drive me out to the front of Victoria`s condominium out of pure kindness because they had to go somewhere.
anyway, i met Victoria there then we took bus 89 to BPMC. yeah, the service was pretty boring. i liked riverlife`s one better ;) after church we went to McDonalds in Loyang Point to eat our lunch. camwhored for like 2 hours straight, baby.
Regina & me.
my dear (second) cousin Victoria wearing the hat i gave her as one of the presents.
Janene when she wasn`t payin attention.
a super close up of Rachel because she was sitting next to me.
Regina had to go first. then Christie Leong had to go. then we went to this shop that sold those small little tortoise and i bought one for $2. and i hung it on my hp. after that i swore a solemn vow never to hang anything more on my hp. unless one of them breaks. yeah then Victoria had to go and apparently she left Rachel`s bible on an unused counter outside and WE TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT IT but i`ll come to that later.
so Janene, Rachel and i went to Rachel`s house which is like opposite Loyang Point, forgetting her bible. we got to Rachel`s house and Rachel fully played this prank on Janene TWICE about that scary maze game and Janene totally screamed blue murder TWICE.
2nd video of janene will be up here when my father gets off the good computer yeah.
then Janene had to go home. so i stayed at Rachel`s house all day. then i realised that Kenneth lived 2 FLOORS DIRECTLY ABOVE HER (same gate number, different floor) and so i thought it might be nice to go up and say hi. but i only saw his grandmother there and she said they haven`t come back from their holiday yet. but Kenneth SMSed me at like 10+PM that it was only THEN that he came back from his holiday. sheesh. so for the whole afternoon me and Rachel were like spitting out the 9th storey of the building and seeing where it landed. laughter is the best medicine, my dear. i`ve never laughed so much in my life. hahas.
so afterwards we went to Loyang Point. and when we got back to the counter in the high hopes that Rachel`s bible was still there, AMAZINGLY IT HAD SURVIVED THERE ALL AFTERNOON. O M G. LOL!!! Rachel and me were like...WHOAH. later we went to the food court to eat our dinner. mine was a nice, cheap $3 chicken rice and i finished my dinner before Rachel`s dinner even ARRIVED. why? because she ordered western food. so Victoria met us there and she helped us ask the uncle to da bao for us while Rachel and me went to 7-11 to buy some drinks.
after that, we fully ran to BPMC because we were a few minutes late for the christmas musical. but we managed to get a good spot. it wasn`t that good because Alex & Sean were RIGHT BEHIND US -_-# i wonder if Alex knows he never stops talking. (Alex is Jonathan Tan`s friend in the same school) anyway Alex was like disturbing us for like the whole thing which was actually sort of good because only the musical was good.
that was the first slide when we got in.
the pastor`s message was so boring. it`s good to have some entertainment during boring times, even though we were being like really rude not listening to the pastor and all. dammit, i knew we should`ve stuck to the back seats. because later some uncle told us to be polite and pay attention. sheesh. to make matters worse, Victoria thought it would be nice to act mature and tell us to stop, too. sheesh, Victoria i thought you were Bubbles. you should change to Blossom and Regina can be Bubbles.
anyway, after the service we went downstairs to sit on the stage while Rachel ate her da bao-ed western food that was probably all cold and soggy 3X and these 2baby boys were like fully disturbing poor Alex. then, to finish it off, Victoria`s uncle (my father`s cousin) drove us home (:
and that ended a wonderful SUNDAY(:
TODAY
i`m just posting in the morning. i`m going out with Joy later. this morning Victoria SMSed me and told me Alex wanted my hp number. BLOODY HELL, CAN`T HE JUST ASK ME HIMSELF??? *shakes head* boys these days.
♥/christieohaihui!(:
(Christie) ♥ 10:16 AM
DECEMBER{; twelve days of xmas
Friday, December 21, 2007
-_-#
i took the maths test today at SACSS. oh my !@#$%^&*. it was so bloody freaking hard!!! i skipped more than half of the questions, man. but the principal said she`d already accept me into her school way before i took that maths test, because she`s got like two other girls in the school who actually went to study in Australia, and they decided to come back to study in Singapore, like me. so she said she understood perfectly well what we went through. she also said the maths test was very hard for those girls as well. WELL, WHADYA KNOW? I`M NOT THE ONLY ONE. teeheehee.
anyway i never knew bus 17 took so long to get there. since it was like my first time going there by bus, i said i`d have to stay AWAKE just to make sure i don`t skip the bus stop i was supposed to get off at. bloody hell. i should`ve gone to sleep in the bus. it took like more than half an hour to get there >.<" -sighs- like Chris Tucker said in the movie RUSH HOUR 2, "I CAN`T BELIEVE I FLEW TEN THOUSAND MILES FOR THIS SHIT!!!". yeah. that was how i felt.
so far, NO ONE i know is going to SACSS. sheesh. Shermaine was SO RIGHT. i somehow just don`t want to leave every single one of my PRPS friends behind. it would be so hard. not after all those years we spent together in the classroom. but in a way i feel guilty of going to Australia, leaving them for like P4, 5 and 6. i wonder what my life would`ve been like if i haven`t gone to Australia. and now i`m going to an all-girls school. oh my goodness.
why was my life meant to turn out this way???
yesterday i went to get my hair cut shorter. but you can`t really tell. that was what i took before the hairdresser came to me.
WITH MY HANDPHONE!!! BWAHAHAHAHA!
on the 1st day of christmas this cool gal gave to me white nail polish just for me
on the 2nd day of christmas this cool gal gave to me two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 3rd day of christmas this cool gal gave to me three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 4th day of christmas this cool gal gave to me four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 5th day of christmas this cool gal gave to me five cameras, four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 6th day of christmas this cool gal gave to me six iPod nanos, five cameras, four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 7th day of christmas this cool gal gave to me seven roxy slippers, six iPod nanos, five cameras, four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 8th day of christmas this cool gal gave to me eight tiny skateboards, seven roxy slippers, six iPod nanos, five cameras, four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 9th day of christmas this cool gal gave to me nine hamsters squeaking, eight tiny skateboards, seven roxy slippers, six iPod nanos, five cameras, four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 10th day of christmas this cool gal gave to me ten silver bracelets, nine hamsters squeaking, eight tiny skateboards, seven roxy slippers, six iPod nanos, five cameras, four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 11th day of christmas this cool gal gave to me eleven harmonicas, ten silver bracelets, nine hamsters squeaking, eight tiny skateboards, seven roxy slippers, six iPod nanos, five cameras, four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
on the 12th day of christmas, this cool gal gave to me twelve million dollars, eleven harmonicas, ten silver bracelets, nine hamsters squeaking, eight tiny skateboards, seven roxy slippers, six iPod nanos, five cameras, four handphone charms, three bubble teas, two vintage Ts and white nail polish just for me.
(inspired by BART SIMPSON`S GUIDE TO LIFE - Matt Groening)
(Christie) ♥ 6:53 PM
DECEMBER{; phone!
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
YES!!! A HP!!! OF MY VERY OWN!!! my mother actually bought for me the SIM card first... only today after i sat for the (english) test at St Anthony's Cannosian Secondary School. i`m sitting for the maths test this friday like from 2:00PM to 3:30PM, probably. anyway, my hp model is the Nokia 5300 - XpressMusic. it`s got like...radio...MP3 player...CAMERA...and it`s like this sliding phone. COOL!
for the english test when i had to write this compo on describing someone special to me, i was like just sitting there going...O M G. until i decided to write about Temily. because maybe writing about an ang mor might just spice things up a little ;DDD
anyway yesterday when i went to YuMin`s house, i decided to cut through Pasir Ris park to get to my house because that entire long road from DTE is on FREAKING CONSTRUCTION and it`s sooo dusty & full of banglas ): the one thing i hate about these construction workers building this condominium near my house is that at night, those workers could actually get a pair of binoculars and look into my room O_O even worse, my BATHROOM is connected to my room. FACING THE CONDOMINIUM. bloody hell. they couldn`t pick a nicer spot to build a condominium __-__ anyway i`m like quite thankful for going to Yu Min`s house yesterday because she managed to teach me some maths...well, to be more precise, she didn`t actually teach me...i just asked her things like "do you times this and that to get so-and-so" and if she just replied in the affirmative then that pretty much settled it all XDD
today the internet was on maintenance so i didn`t use it for the whole day. but that didn`t really bother me because i wasn`t even at home for the whole day LOL. i was at SAC taking my test *bwahahahahahahaha*.
anyway my parents got this freaking 19 inch LCD monitor and i was just like: "WHY IS IT SO FREAKING HUGE?!?!?!?" and my parents just go: "they don`t sell the 14 inch ones anymore. this was the smallest size we could get". CRIKEY! the screen is so damn huge. oh well.
i`m actually quite happy it didn`t rain today. and i just love being in possession of a hp ;) ♥/christieohaihui!(:
PS. none of my Christmas wishes have been fulfilled. oh well.
(Christie) ♥ 7:54 PM
DECEMBER{; home.
Monday, December 17, 2007
my mother finally got the Starhub guy to come and fix our internet, that`s why i`m able to blog at home right now.
i got back home yesterday. you have no idea how great it feels to be home. so here i am in the darker, hotter and more humid world of Singapore.
i watched like two movies on the plane...Shrek the Third and The Simpsons Movie. they were pretty good but Shrek the Third wasn`t exactly that fantastic. the stupid guy sitting in the seat in front of me kept his seat reclined for the WHOLE journey and i didn`t have the heart to go over and tell him something like: "excuse me, please put your seat upright because i`m feeling really squished at the back". so my little TV was like uber close to my face and that`s why i only watched two movies because for the rest of the trip, i had a nap against my brother`s arm.
when i got back, i went over to Zhe Ru`s house and Joy was there with Claudia XDD and Zhe Min fully jumped out of her seat and sprinted all the way to give me a hug. Aw. she can be really hyper sometimes. no, not sometimes. ALL THE TIME -_-# anyway we went to jump on ZR`s trampoline and then Shermaine came with Xin Yi XDD then we all ended up jumping on the trampoline but Shermaine kept falling down O.O" when we were all tired of jumping because our stomachs were like hurting from jumping so much and laughing so much (at Shermaine falling down), we decided to go to Shermaine`s chalet at DTE. it was quite fun just walking there. because we saw this group of ah bengs in front of us walking the typical ah beng walk (swinging your arms and walking noisily because of their slippers and talking super loud and laughing even louder) and we decided to imitate them. bwahahaha. anyway Shermaine`s chalet was quite fun XDD we saw Serene & Jolina & Charlene & Esther there :DD plus Claudia and the other peeps were like trying to get me to speak chinese >.<" at least i still managed to understand what they were saying XDD i just can`t speak chinese without sounding really dumb.
today ZR & Joy came to my house for like a few hours to teach me some Maths...but they all ended up sleeping on the chairs because they said my house feels like making them go to sleep. wierd. anyway ZR went back and Joy ate at my house... we took pictures of Loyang Place that i`m going to put on our blog LATER... anyway, at 1+ we went to WS and Kenneth was late again. so when we were in Popular i went outside to look for them then i saw AARON, BALA & KENNETH just getting off the escalator. -sighs- we went to the library after the guys went to KFC which was like on the very bottom floor (we srsly hated walking all the way down). then when Kenneth was like trying to teach me smth that stupid Aaron kept talking rubbish...SOOO hard to concentrate with him around, man. then Bala never talk, just laugh and laugh at Aaron =x HE`S SO FREAKING TALL, MAN.
anyway when ZR`s mother came looking for us in the library we had to like...go. and when Zhe Min came to like give me a hug and just kachao me again...the boys were like...is THAT YOUR SISTER??? and i was just like...no, it`s her *points to ZR* sister. and they`re just blinking at ZR going: Oh.
yeah. i played The Sims 2 at Joy`s house when we got back...it was like raining all afternoon.
and my BROTHER`S FRIEND FROM AUSTRALIA (who is actually Singaporean) IS GOING TO STAY AT OUR HOUSE FOR A MONTH. WAHPIANG EH HE THINK FREE ONE AH? CAN STAY WITH US LIKE NO CHARGE LIDAT ONE AH??? -sighs- but my brother is the anything-for-a-friend type of person. so.
off to bury my face in maths workbooks T.T ♥/christieohaihui!(:
&/ i left Neverland; i went home. and i said goodbye to the last three years that were just pretend.
(Christie) ♥ 7:57 PM
DECEMBER{; precious time
Saturday, December 15, 2007
it`s the last post for me in Australia. the house we`re in right now is all empty, save for a couple of chairs, one bed, two desks and two computers. yeah. i`m going back tomorrow. but why don`t i feel as excited as some other people? yeah...nothing matters to me anymore. i can finally let go of...everything. everything in the world. i even gave my drawing book to Aleya this morning. it used to be so treasured by me. but Aleya wanted it so much so i gave it to her.
this morning, she and Temily came to my house to bring me to Aleya`s house. to say goodbye. but Aleya was taking care of a huge dog that actually belonged to her friend, and when we got back to her house, the dog wasn`t there, and the netting near the gate was broken. so we went running around the whole neighbourhood in the bitterly cold wind screaming "DIVA!!!" (the dog`s name). but we didn`t find her. so Aleya`s father was like scolding her while me and Temily were just standing by...in the end, her father dropped both of us home. i hope Aleya finds Diva.
the whole house looks so big right now. it`s just so...empty. i could practically do the cartwheels (which i`ve never even tried before) and not hit anything at all. that`s how empty the house is. i got a whole lot of packing up to do. i hate this life. i don`t see any reason why i shouldn`t. you can`t change the past. hakuna matata. so why worry...
goodbye Australia. this is going to be hard to say, but...i`ll miss you. if it weren`t for my friends in Singapore, i`d never go back to Singapore. thanks Regina, Victoria, YuMin, TX & Joy for keeping me alive.
Is this fine? I'm not fine Give me pieces, give me things to stay awake (stay awake)
-Dance Inside, The All-American Rejects
(Christie) ♥ 10:58 AM
DECEMBER{; 100th Post
Thursday, December 13, 2007
how coincidental that it should be the end of school, and yet my 100th post. i don`t know how to feel.
in science, we went to the other classroom to watch The Simpsons Movie. in design&technology, Mr Waterman even brought in a little TV so we could watch Mr Bean shows. in SS, we watched Hot Fuzz. in maths, Mr Oates let us do whatever we wanted on the computers.
i gave Temily and Aleya my address in Singapore so they could still keep in contact with me, like penpals. i remember today when i was on the field with Miss Tapley during PE because she was just saying goodbye to us, and usually half the school walks across the field to get to the bus stops. and Temily saw me and gave me one last hug before we said goodbye and i just watched her walk across with her party hat still on her head, carrying her prizes from SS. Emma P. gave me such a loving hug during lunch. i can tell she`s going to be a great mother if she ever becomes one. i wrote Aleya`s brother an 'in advance' little letter. i`m apparently her brother's tooth fairy. because she said i`ve got really tiny writing so it might look like a fairy wrote it. i wrote it in that usual shiny silver gel pen. i`ll miss my contact class XDD they were like...family. like Miss Tapley said at the beginning of the year: "your contact class is going to be just like your family". i`ll miss waving to Ryo. i`ll miss sitting with Casey and Temily, just rushing to get out to lunch through those double gym doors.
it`s funny...how time flies. never been more grateful for those who kept me alive during the times when i thought i must be dead. it`s just as if...when i stepped out of my different classrooms today, i knew there wouldn`t be any trace of me left. what`s gone is gone; they will never come again. it`s hard to know what to feel during times like these...
i`m going to have to pack my bags tonight. i`ve got three days to pack. may God help me; and have mercy upon my soul.
Do You Remember When Getting high meant swinging at the playground? The worst thing you could get from girls was cooties? Dad was your hero & Mom was the only girl in your life? Your worst enemies were your siblings? Race issues were who ran the fastest? War was a card game? The only drug you knew of was cough medicine? The only thing you smoked was the tires on your bike? The only thing that hurt was skinned knees? The only things that could get broken were your toys? Life was simple and carefree? but what I remember the most was wanting to grow up. And now that the innocence of childhood is gone... I Yearn for it all again...
-Amos
[this bit was made on Friday, 14th December at 11:54AM, 10:54AM in Singapore] i took these photos last night.
[this bit was made on 6:39PM, 5:39PM] and here are my flight details just in case you were wondering...but i don`t think anyone will probably bother, anyway. it`s just for your interest. FLIGHT DETAILS: Arriving time: 5:20PM approx. Airlines: Quantas. Terminal: 1 Arriving date: 16/12/2007. Will be wearing: a black and grey striped hoodie with jeans, carrying many bags. Will be accompanied by: An older brother about 1.75m tall.
LOL. this is the place where we usually sit at lunch.
LOL! Emma P. helped me take this photo because Reene wouldn`t let me take a picture of her. well, if you can`t already tell, she`s the one in the middle ;)
Casey during contact class when the teacher wasn`t looking ;)
Temily during (the same) contact class when the teacher wasn`t looking.
The bench Casey and me were sitting on in contact class. haha that was Casey`s foot and my skirt. that`s not a very nice spot on the bench, is it? O_O
LOL i took this as soon as the bell went and everyone was leaving through that door. Miss Tapley was like at the end of the gym...i hope she didn`t see me with the camera O_O
Danielle during lunch...
Tabbatha during drama when that ghey teacher wasn`t paying attention...like always.
Toneya during drama.
;)
(Christie) ♥ 2:01 PM
DECEMBER{; tuesday morning
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
today, in every single one of my classes except science, we watched a video. how quirky is that? for SS, we watched this strange documentary about this 5300 year old mummy found in the Alps. for english, we watched videos on YouTube. for japanese, we watched The Lion King in japanese. for health, we watched I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry.
o.o"
it rained today. in science, Matt was just like: "IS IT SUMMER???" and Jared goes: "It can rain in summer" and Matt, with his usual response to anything that Jared says: "Shut up, Prentis" (everyone refers to Jared as his last name).
oh, my, goodness. i`m still not getting anywhere in my maths. -_-#
thanks, Victoria for inspiring me to keep an emo-free blog, as well as Joy & TX & Regina & Stephanie for cheerin me up ;)
okay, just for the record, i`ll just tell everyone again that there`s really nothing i can do when it comes to choosing schools in Singapore >.<" and the school i`m going to have to go to next year is St Anthony's Cannosian Secondary School. why? because my mother, being a principal (for once, i am finally thankful for my mother being a principal because she practically knows like every single principal of every single secondary school) is friends with the principal in St Anthony's Cannosian Secondary School and the principal agreed to let me sit for the test on the 19th December. it`s an all girls school. just when my luck couldn`t get any worse, it has to be all the way in Bedok. great.
i have to write down my Christmas wishlist. Victoria`s already written hers X3
a new bottle of black nail polish
a bottle of white nail polish
a bottle of clear nail polish
go on a shopping spree with Tori
(silver) charms
monokuroboo sling bag
nightmare before christmas sling bag
a SONY Cybershot digital camera
a Nokia 6111
a new pair of running shoes
impulse ico deodorant
impulse illusion deodorant
a scooter
:DD
(Christie) ♥ 9:08 PM
DECEMBER{; suuicidde note
Thursday, December 6, 2007
i don`t think my death date wish will be granted. i don`t care anymore.
last night my mother sent another email to my father and this time my father told me to come to the computer screen to read it. my mother gave my father a link to a website that tells you the dates for taking a test to get back into a Singapore school. the date is tomorrow. tell me, can you get me back to Singapore tomorrow?
the next test is on the 7th of March 2008. if i am really serious on going back to Singapore, i will miss out on the first term. "miss lah, sec1 they oso don`t teach you anything what" so says my brother. "YOU go and get into a sport so even if you don`t meet the standard you can use the sport to get you in"
i want to say i don`t care where i am. but i know i do care. i want to go back to Singapore. SCREW THE STUDYING IN SINGAPORE. i know i`ll drop dead sooner or later if i spend another year in Australia. these obstacles in my way are just making my life seem so hopeless. honestly, i don`t know what to do now. i don`t know anything now except that i`m going back in 10 days, and my future will be decided then.
i just changed my blog music because Shermaine is starting to think i`m becoming a Jay Chou fan even though i already told her i`m not a Jay Chou fan, never will be one. i honestly doubt any guy will ever say these words below to me:
C'mon c'mon Yeah Can you feel me? (Baby can you feel me?) I've got something to say Check it out For all this time I've been lovin' you girl Oh yes I have And ever since the day You left me here alone I've been trying to find Oh, the reason why
So if I did Something wrong Please tell me I wanna understand 'Cause I don't want This love to ever end
And I swear If you come back In my life I'll be there till the end of time (Come back to me Come back to me Back into my life) And I swear I'll keep you right By my side 'Cause baby You're the one I want (Come back to me Come back to me Back into my life) Oh yes you are
I watched you go You've taken My heart with you Oh yes you did Every time I tried to reach you On the phone Baby you're never there Girl you're never home
So if I did something wrong Please tell me I wanna understand 'Cause I don't want This love to ever end No, no, no, no
I swear If you come back In my life I'll be there till the end of time (Come back to me Come back to me Back into my life) And I swear I'll keep you right By my side 'Cause baby You're the one I want (Come back to me Come back to me Back into my life) Oh yes you are
Maybe I didn't know How to show it And maybe I didn't know What to say This time I won't disguise Then we can Build our lives Then we can Be as one
I swear If you come back In my life I'll be there till the end of time (Come back to me Come back to me Back into my life) Oh yeah And I swear I'll keep you right By my side 'Cause baby You're the one I want (Come back to me Come back to me) Oh yes you are
And I swear If you come back In my life I'll be there till the end of time (Come back to me Come back to me Back into my life) Oh yeah And I swear I'll keep you right By my side
(Christie) ♥ 2:58 PM
DECEMBER{; laughs
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
today, first period was English, and we were using the computers still to do our advertisements. since Temily and me had already finished with like half an hour to spare, we decided to go on YouTube to watch some funny videos, since we were using YouTube to find an advertisement to analyse. and we laughed like crazy (trying to make as little noise as possible so the teacher wouldn`t hear us) man... i just found some of the videos we watched. it`s enough to make your day, man. halfway through one of them i was like gasping: "I CAN`T BREATHE!! PAUSE!!!" because i was like laughing so much ROFL. don`t worry, all of these videos open up in a new window so just click on them.
[this bit was made at 5:06PM, 4:06PM in Singapore] i don`t want to ruin everyone`s laughs, but i have to say this, anyway. last night when i was passing by this computer while my father was using it, i couldn`t help but notice he was reading an email. now, i`m not the type of person who likes to know something i`m not meant to know, but i couldn`t help but notice my name in the email. it was from my mother to my father. now my father is like totally cut off from the world when he`s at the computer so he wouldn`t even notice if i farted behind him or anything. anyway i was like a little distance away from him but i still managed to read the screen.
my mother said something like...she talked to the principal of Hai Sing Catholic School. and it is unlikely that i will be able to get there. because she said the MOE is already posting all the P6s to their different secondary schools, and since i didn`t take the MOE test earlier in October, and also because i have no PSLE results to show them, i can`t get in. my mother said the only other alternative is to go to those really lan schools that are what she referred to as a 'dumping ground'. she said if i really want to get into a school in singapore, i`ll have to wait after everyone is posted to their schools and then check for any vacancies.
so what`s it gonna be now, aye? is my life seriously meant to be this hopeless? waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting is what my life is made up of. nothing more. i deleted my last post because i know those wishes aren`t going to happen. wishing for things now is so pointless. i know if a lot of people read this, they will think i`m emo, but i`m not emo enough to slit my wrists. i mean, suicide is certainly not the thing i`m going after. i was going to say: "I want to die", but i just know i want to escape the world and this life. to escape reality is something i just wish for. oh, here i go again wishing. i don`t even listen to myself, let alone anyone else. everytime something good comes my way, it never lasts. because something always comes along to screw it up, most of the time because of my mother. i just need hope, even if it is nothing more than a fragment.
(Christie) ♥ 2:33 PM
DECEMBER{; realisation
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
i know my posts are getting shorter day by day.
"im gonna miss aussieland. shocking eh? after all the strong hate feelings for this damn country two years ago. well, i had other attachments. the wrong attachments. temporary attachments that meant the world to me. somethin i thought would last forever. but well...i guess i grew up. well, the most importatnt lessons are the hardest to learn. especially through living through it."
taken from my brother`s blog yet again. maybe brothers and sisters were meant to think alike. well...maybe only us.
-sighs- what the bloody hell man. i know its only 12 more days till i return. why am i even counting down the days? i don`t want to count anymore. the more i count down the days till my return, the more i find i`m losing myself bit by bit, enveloped in the whole delusion of my bliss in Singapore until i forget who i am, right now, in Australia. i want to cherish my time left here in this alien country. i mean, i won`t be seeing it again for maybe two (or more) years. won`t breathe the air i love so much here, won`t see the moon and stars the same way again, won`t catch those same beautiful sunsets ever again. instead, i`ll be taking neoprints and camwhoring like any other ordinary girl in Singapore. what a waste of my life. yet, it`s worth it, i should think.
this was the sunset i just took. it`s not much, but i pray that it will not be the last one i take before i return back to the dark gloom of my loving home.
from a few steps outside the door.
to the end of the road.
zoomed in at the end of the road. oh, how i detest that tree. but then again, it`s been planted where there is always good sunlight, so i guess that was why it was there __-__
last night, i went outside to the end of the road to take out our dustbin because that is where we put our dustbins together for the rubbish truck to pick them up. anyway, while i was out there, there was just a beautiful cold wind blowing. the one thing i love doing outside at night is just tilting my head back to the sky and trying not to see anything but the sky. have you ever tried that? it`s so magical. you could never see a better sky than in Australia. maybe once i finish graduating here in Australia i`ll go on a road trip with my father :DDD camping out in the bush just stargazing. and then i`ll ask Vickay to come with me. BWAHAHAHAHA.
today after school as i was walking to the front, one of the sk8erboi Luke`s friends came up behind me and goes all innocently: "Excuse me, can i have a hug?" i said "no". and he goes all: "awww please?" i just walked off. see how downright bloody these ang mor boys are? you don`t even know them and this is what they do to you.
anyway, today in school i had to do two aful oral presentations. one was in Japanese with Reene. the other one was in Health with Caitlin and she was like pretty meek and stuff in front of the class. lame oral presentations. they suck to the core, man. and whadya know? i`ve got to do ANOTHER one tomorrow in Drama. well, not really. it actually IS an oral presentation, only you`re doing a play. and let me tell you, folks, Drama is like the LAST thing you wanna do unless you wanna make a total and complete ass of yourself in front of people who like to go up to you and give you random free hugs.
today in English, Japanese and Health, i rested my head between my arms due to total boredom. sadly, my arms are like uber skinny so i didn`t have much comfort in that. could these last few days get any worse?
i hate school so much. i`m pretty sure i`ve said that before, but... working your ass off for no good reason is indeed depressing. to hell with school & studying. everyone in Singapore is so hardworking, not only in school but on Maple as well. was i made to be in Singapore? only God knows my brother and i weren`t made for working our asses off. my brother, who will never conform to the boredom of studying. may God have mercy on his soul. what about me? what is ME doing? well, just trying to fall asleep in class, that`s all. i don`t know if that`ll change in the coming two years. what will i do? oh, here i go again, this hopeless soul just struggling to find herself. Hai Sing Catholic School. i never thought i`d end up there. if i don`t end up there, where will i end up then? School of the Arts? HA!!! auditions are OVER, christie. fat hope of getting there. may God have his way in my life.
i woke up in the middle of the night. well actually early morning at like 5 smth when the sky was just a grey blue. and the first thing that came into my mind was: It`s the first of December. you have no idea how happy i was. because i realised...at the end of this month, this SAME MONTH, i will find myself in singapore. this month will be the month i think i will have to learn a lot of things, especially maths. how long months feel; you feel like you have just gone through a whole year at the end of every month, don`t you? how it feels to feel like you`ve just managed to survive for one whole month. it is a blessing to have lived for a long time.
Jacob & Jonah, my neighbours in Singapore; Joy`s next door neighbours are moving house today. she told me the movers were coming in to move their things off. i`m not as sad as Joy because i hardly talked to them while i was in Singapore. well...i`ll never see them again. it`s normal for such things to happen, anyway. we can`t expect to be together for as long as we live...we meet and part like the clouds. it`s the way of life.
i downloaded MapleSea and i`m only Lvl 16. DDDD: the whole 2x exp thing in Delphinus is pretty good, because for one thing: MapleGlobal never has these kinds of things. so there we go.
okay this bit is for those who posted awhile ago and didn`t read my replies to their tags. this involves my going back to Singapore. FLIGHT DETAILS: Arriving time: 5:20PM approx. Airlines: Quantas. Arriving date: 16/12/2007. Will be wearing: a black and grey striped hoodie with jeans, carrying many bags. Will be accompanied by: An older brother about 1.75m tall.
there we go. now i don`t insist that you come to the airport to see me because i really don`t know if your parents will allow it LOL. you can always call me at around 7-ish or 9-ish, anytime before 11:30PM ;) plus my mother will be picking me and my brother up and all so i don`t know if her patience involves me stopping to chat with a few friends. hey Victoria...if you reeeaaaally want to come to the airport you gotta get your mother to call MY mother to make arrangements LOL. but i don`t insist it lol. you can always meet up with me the next day. or the day after that etc. because i don`t know who`s going out with me yet ;)
anyways..that`s all for the first of December. adios/adieu/ciao/sayonara/zai jian/goodBYE!(: ♥/christieohaihui!(:
